Monday, March 19, 2012

Heavily happy heart.

It is absolutely impossible for me to put in words the memories, feelings, thoughts and emotions I've had in the past 84 hours. I need to set aside a few hours to type it all out, because though painful, I really want to write this experience all out in words as to not forget anything, no matter how devastating they may be. I understand how utterly vague that statement is, but just bear with me. However, my support system, per usual, is on fire. It's the hour long impromptu 10am coffee date on a Monday morning where when words couldn't find their way, tears sufficed and somehow told the story the way it needed to be told. { which, by the way, there is something so painfully beautiful about sitting at a table with someone who means more to you than you will ever be able to express to them, looking each other square in the eye, and simply crying that is so unbearably healing. It is a moment that is so real, raw, vulnerable yet 100% honest. } It's the constant flow of IM's and text messages which really is more like a hug and just knowing the love that is put into those words. It's the silence between two people that says more than any words of encouragement ever could.

Right now:
I am loving watching the clouds pass through in the sky. Knowing another day has come, and is going before our very eyes.
I am itchy to get out of work, throw on my running clothes and new shoes Hunter surprised me with {ekk!!}, going for a run with him, then perusing the isles of Whole Foods for our dinner tonight, BBQ'ing out in the backyard, dreaming up the garden for the summer, playing checkers, creating moments and simply being.
I am dreading going through my work email because there are always, always, always too many emails.
I am pounding water to get rid of this headache.
Above all, I am so happy to have the ability to do all of the things above.

Please do me a favor. Please call your mom today just because you can. Call her and laugh with her, or cry with her. Retell stories from the past. Share secrets. Make a list of what you are most excited for in the future. Tell her you love her. If you are mad at her, forgive her. If you are annoyed with her, ignore it. At the end of the day, are those things really worth holding on to when our time here is so short and so precious?! I didn't think so either.

I know this post is all over the place, so my apologies. It's just what is on my mind and heart today.

What is on YOUR mind or heart today?!

And last but not least, a pix, and people, that make my heart uncontrollably and unquestionably happy.

1 comment:

  1. I called my mom to tell her I love her and appreciate her do much. Thank you for the reminder to never let a day/moment go by without taking a moment to share how much people mean to you